April 13 am

04-13-18

Friday the 13th.
Captain's log.
Jellybeans.

Well I had my meltdown.
I said my piece
And I ate a horrible green jelly bean.
Now what.

I can sit here sulking.

I can sit here waiting.

I can sit here crying.

But that is not what I do.

Job #1 is to take control.
Job #2 is to take back my life.
Job #3 is to evaluate the situation.
Job #4 is to keep detailed accounts.
Job #5 is to remember I am not alone.
Job #6 is to enjoy.

Why?
Cause I do not give up
My jelly beans that easily anymore.
Cause this is the only life I have
And this disease is not taking
Any more of it than I have to give.
Cause if they won't help immediately
There are other sources of help.
Cause detailed accounts help me
Streamline a doctors appointment
To deal with the actual problem.
Cause alone is scarier than knowing
Someone out there is thinking about you.
Cause nothing pisses a disease off
More than doing what you want anyway.

I have been here.
I can do this.
I am strong.
I have lots of support.
I have good doctors.
I will not take chances.

I am loved.

Good morning everyone